Support for ADD / ADHD
When you are about to turn 50, and have managed to survive this far coping rather well with ADHD - then should you bother going for a diagnosis. In my case, my son was diagnosed, so really the diagnosis should all be about him. The fact is that I can now see the traits going back down the line through me to my father - and I had a lightbulb moment at the ADHD international conference in Liverpool to make me realise - Aha! I'm the genetic culprit!
So, should I go for that diagnosis? Well I think, I have now, with a little bit of helpful therapy, decided yes. It's not just the self medicating, perhaps controlled medication would be safer all round, but also it might actually push me into a new phase in my career. I realise that my efficiency has floundered in the unstructured world of a freelancer, and myabe I'd be able to manage better if I was to take the official medication instead of calming myself down daily unofficially.
Perhaps the most enlightening realisation, that was for all my proselytising and fighting on behalf of my son to counter the stigma around ADHD (or any neurodisability, or neurodevelopmental disorder or mental health full stop for that matter), I realise that I was subject to that myself. With a diagnosis, I might have to declare my ADHD - say on job or work applications, or god knows where. Without it, I am still in the dark.
But for all the helpfulness in realising that I have it (or am fairly sure I have it) and all the measures that I have put in place to try and counter my daily forgetfulness and havoc I wreak regularly, I still think that I will go for the diagnosis.
How can I fight that stigma until I am brave enough to own who I am myself. Reason enough to do it.